It is Friday, Bitches!!!!!!!!!!!

Woo Hoo! I am so excited for the weekend. This week has been long and boring. Jason is going camping/fishing tonight and tomorrow. Dylan and I will get some good quality time together before we leave for Grannie's in the morning. Fun filled weekend of eating and family gossip. I really enjoy my time with her and hope she lives to be 150!! Hope everyone really enjoys the weekend.

Just a little bitch session!!

There are times when the differences between people are so obvious it is like a slap in the face. Yesterday I had an encounter with this phenomenon. I don't want to go into detail and call anyone out, but need to get some frustration off my chest. Here is the vague synopsis.
Why do women concern (or as men would call it worry) themselves about things? HMMMMM, maybe because there are things in this world that require attention!! Just like worrying is not going to fix anything, sitting around and ignoring it isn't either. There is no magic fairy or guru out there to rid your life of stress or tell you what to do. At least when you worry you think and talk about it and possibly come up with some viable solutions.
I will be the first to admit I can be a major control freak. Although I can stay more calm than a lot of other control freaks out there........inside my head it is a madhouse. When it comes to finances, Dylan, our safety and stability, I tend to (over)analyze and stress. So, I can empathize with others in their time of need.
Here are a few mottos I live by (whether they are beneficial or not):
"Money does not grow on trees, you have to suck it up and make it for yourself."
"Problems don't solve themselves by silencing them, they fester and become ticking time bombs waiting to explode."
"No one can take care of you like you can take care of yourself, so throwing up your hands is not an option. Voice your opinion and take action, or don't bitch when things don't go your way." - This theory works for voting too!
"Love first and always, ask questions of everyone, be honest even if it gets you in trouble, and have faith in yourself and your abilities (and not the magic fairy)."
I wish I had the courage to stand up and voice my opinions about certain things going on right now in my life (not in my house, so don't worry Babe!), but I have been put in that situation many times in the past and it always back fires and ends up only hurting me in the end with no resolution to the problem. I am not a trained mediator and I have emotion involved too even if I am able to suppress it better than some.
I hope someday in the near future the people I care about can be secure and content. For now I just have to take care of me and mine and be supportive where and how I can.
Life is hard and scary and it is falling apart all around us all the time. So, be true to yourself, hold tight to your convictions and LOVE FIRST.

Over-the-Shoulder-Boulder-Holder

WARNING!!--If you are of the belief that it is bad for kids to ever see their parents naked, stop reading now.


If not and you enjoy funny Dylan stories, proceed.
In the mornings (and a lot of other times as it seems he is a true Burr male and doesn't move quickly for anything but football), we play a game with Dylan to get him motivated to get dressed for school. The challenge is to see who can get dressed the fastest. Since Jason and I aren't actually participating he usually wins. If I happen to beat him it is by default because he can't find his shoes or something. That either ends in tears or just lights a fire for him to try harder the next morning.
Anyway, this morning I was way ahead of the boys and decided that I would have Jason take Dylan to school, so Dylan made up a game for just me. He watched the clock and told me every minute that passed. He decided that I needed to be ready by "ten", which was the clock saying 8:10, so he kept hounding me with every passing minute. "Mommy another minute, you better hurry!!", etc.
So the zipper on my pants was not working well and I was walking around trying to find a safety pin for a temporary fix. I walk from the bedroom to the bathroom with only my underwear and pants on at this point and Dylan says, "Mommy?! You still have to WRAP UP YOUR BOOBIES, and put your shirt and shoes on!!"
OMG, Jason and I thought it was too funny.

Confessions of a Smoke-a-holic

Okay, so most of you know this already, but............I started smoking again. It all started with too many weekends of partying in a row around mid January. From Thanksgiving until then, I had been doing really well. I was only partaking in a few puffs after a few drinks and then a few late night cigs on the really wild nights.
Then I smoked every weekend for three weekends in a row and it was over. I am still not smoking near as much as before and have kicked the habit successfully during work hours. For the most part, I do not have my first cig until I get home from work.
My plan is to try to get back on the wagon soon. If not cold turkey, at least cut way back again. I will say this...........when I decide to get pregnant and quit, I will never start back up again. Seriously people, if I go out for a girls night when my baby is 4 months old and think it is a good idea to have a cigarette, SLAP ME UPSIDE THE HEAD!!
I am too addicted to handle it.
I am "outing" myself to my out of town friends and family because I can't bear the shame of confessing over the phone. I hope you will all still love me.

Kung Fu Kids

Here is my "on a lighter note" blog of the day.

Dylan is starting Kung Fu class at his new school tomorrow. He got to test it out last week and really enjoyed himself. I think it will be a good way for him to release some of his overflowing energy and learn some discipline and respect at the same time. There are about 10 boys in his class that participate and they get to wear a cute little gi with a dragon on the back!
I am hoping to go see a class soon. I'll report back later!!
First thing he learned in class last week was how to yell "YES SIR!!" Jason gets a big kick out of that.

Attitude Problems

Let me start by saying I am guilty of the following act myself, so I am in no way trying to pass judgement.
Doesn't it seem impossible not to take your bad mood out on others? I have been observing at my office, with my family and friends, and in public watching strangers...........People can be down right rude for no apparent reason.
I know I react to people very harshly when I am upset about something that has nothing to do with them. It is hard to separate one from the other. But really, the poor waitress at Olive Garden is not to blame for your pitiful life, so don't take it out on her.
Your wife is not at fault for your arrogant boss or the problems you are having at work, so don't take it out on her.
Your kids have no control over your battles with self confidence or procrastination induced pressures.
I will be the first to admit I am way too sensitive when it comes to other people's reacations. I am constantly wondering what I did to make so-and-so "mad at me". I hate that term. It makes me feel like a child, but I use it almost everyday.
As far as I know I have done nothing to piss anyone off out there and if I am wrong, please correct me. But if not, don't take your own shit out on me! I'll be glad to share a bottle of wine with you and plan the destruction of the person who did!

Two Years and Counting!!

It is mine and Jason's second wedding anniversary. I am thankful everyday for my wonderful husband. I am very lucky and hope he knows I feel that way even if I don't always show it. I can't wait to spend some good quality time together later this week and weekend while we have a break from our hectic jobs.
I can't wait to celebrate many, many, many more happy years together. It seems like yesterday we were frantically getting ready for our big day. We had the most fun and beautiful wedding. We are blessed to have been able to share that time with very special family and friends. We have some wonderful relationships to watch and learn from around us. It is because of all of you our relationship is successful!
Here is to my handsome, supportive, intelligent, level-headed, loving husband!! All my love, always and forever.......................